Louise Thompson admits 'something bad happened' amid PTSD struggle
Louise Thompson says she is living through ‘the most challenging chapter’ of her life as she admits ‘something bad happened’ last week amid PTSD struggle
Louise Thompson took to Instagram on Saturday to give an emotional update about her health as she continues to battle with PTSD and postnatal anxiety.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 32, nearly died when she gave birth to son Leo in November 2021 and she has been struggling with her health ever since.
Sharing a moving clip of both good and bad moments from the past few months, Louise gave fans an update on how she’s coping, adding that something happened last weekend to cause a downward spiral.
She wrote: ‘Does anyone else feel like they’re in season 5 of their life and the writers are making ridiculous s**t happen to keep the script interesting?
‘I know Instagram is merely a snapshot of everyone’s life, but man my world has been mad. It’s just felt so messy. Medical issues have compounded every. single. month. and I’ve only just started processing the early stuff.
Fraught: Louise Thompson, 32, took to Instagram on Saturday to give an emotional update about her health as she continues to battle with PTSD and postnatal anxiety
Troubles: The former Made In Chelsea star nearly died when she gave birth to son Leo in November 2021 and she has been struggling with her health ever since
‘Now that I’m going through the timeline with my trauma therapist things seem to be getting a bit harder again. Urgh. She did say that things might get a bit harder before they get better, but I didn’t think that would actually apply to me. I never thought any of these problems would apply to me.
Referring to the video she posted on Instagram, Louise continued: ‘In fact I even found looking over this reel a bit triggering. How can that be? It seems so silly. It’s hard to find the patience.
‘To be honest if I were to create a REAL reel of the last 16 months it would be at least an hour long… there would be hospital appointments every single week, 50+ blood tests and it would be far too painful to make/watch.
‘I’m just dipping my toe in to find some positive nuggets to hold close to my heart at this stage.’
She continued: ‘Re: therapy – it’s the same, we’re really just looking at an overview… starting to scratch the surface and focus on dates of significant events (there seem to be too many) and i’m finding it hard not to deep dive.
‘In terms of health… Gynaecology, gastroenterology, rheumatology, psychiatry, psychotherapy and now haematology appointments, what next? That is six different departments that I’m working with every month. It’s hard to step away from health with all this going on.
‘The mad things is that I didn’t have any issues before all of this. Yes I suffered with mild inflammatory bowel disease but I didn’t need to medicate for 4 years and I’d never even got as far as steroids. Isn’t it crazy how your life can change overnight?
‘I mean i’m only just realising how nuts it is that last July I was told it might be better to have my colon removed. One day I’m on holiday, the next day i’m in A&E with that news. Gosh we so take our health for granted.
Open book: Sharing a moving clip of both good and bad moments from the past few months, Louise gave fans an update on how she’s coping
‘So here lies a short snapshot, and a reminder for ME that things HAVE got better, and for YOU, that things CAN get better too. (I had to change that from a WILL to a CAN because life can be uncertain).
‘So I guess the overriding main message is, keep going!!! Keep plodding on. Good moments will outshine the bad. You will learn to cope. And ask for help! ❤️.’
On working with a life coach and therapist, she wrote: ‘When I started working with my life coach again (I worked with her during the first lockdown and then picked up with her again mid way through last year) she mentioned that she felt that I had lived many lives. That I was an old soul. I am quite spiritual, so I felt that.
‘I believe that I am currently living the most challenging chapter of my life – It’s like i’ve logged onto the hard level… but hopefully, like the seasons, this level will pass. Everything always passes.
‘These thoughts and feelings seem to be taking a damn long time to process… I’m actually very bored by how much time they are taking time to shift… but eventually they will diminish into something totally insignificant… like that stick diagram with the little man and the big circles that get smaller over the years. I’ll reference it on my stories.
‘In fact some days I have are totally 100% normal. Like yesterday… and the day before. It’s only when I reflect back (like I do in therapy) that I realise that this is a HUGE improvement.
Setback: Louise told her social media followers something happened last weekend to cause a downward spiral
Happier times: Louise is seen with her son Leo and her fiancé Ryan Libbey in happier times together
‘Most moments I am totally normal. Last year I was not. It’s gone from 80% torture + 20% ok, to 90% normal + 10% rough.
‘I’m learning how to take the rough with the smooth but some days I just want to feel sorry for myself.
‘Now that I’m feeling good more often, the bad can feel quite amplified. The flashbacks cause ruminating thoughts and make me on high alert for days afterwards and it can feel like quite a negative cycle.
‘Plus something bad happened to me last weekend which I think triggered me. I’ll go into it later.
‘I just wish it was good all the time. My goal is to have a full month with no weird brain stuff happening. No drama. No flashbacks. No agitation.
‘When my life coach (and actually my therapist) agreed that I was going through the trenches atm I have to admit I felt seen. It felt reassuring. It felt like someone cared. That was nice. I am trying to twist things in my head so.’
Last month admitted Louise said she thought ‘she was going to die again’ after her emergency readmission to hospital’, one year after the traumatic birth.
Louise said she was ‘doing really well’ before she suffered a haemorrhage and lost around three litres of blood.
Grateful: While Louise was very open about her struggles, she expressed her gratitude for the support of her fiancé Ryan Libbey
She spent a month in intensive care after welcoming son Leo-Hunter Libbey with boyfriend Ryan.
Louise had previously been in hospital after undergoing a ‘small operation’ amid her gruelling battle with Asherman’s Syndrome.
The condition causes scar tissue to form and build up inside your uterus, it is unknown if her recent admission was from complications from the surgery.
In her first post on Instagram since her hospital stay, she detailed: ‘I’m not going to let this hold me back. I’ve learnt a lot from the last year and I feel in a much sounder headspace than last year so fingers crossed.
‘I’m a bit scared to leave the house (or sometimes even stand up) so slowly slowly and I will have lots of time bored at home so pop me a message???
‘I have to say, I am one damn strong cookie. And I have to hold on to the fact that our bodies are remarkable and can heal from such extraordinarily brutal things. I can and I will heal from this.
Unexpected: She spent a month in intensive care after welcoming son Leo-Hunter Libbey with boyfriend Ryan
‘From feeling all my limbs go cold as my blood tries to protect my vital organs, to shutting off my entire pain response as I had 4x canulas jabbed into my arms at the same time in Rhesus, wow, what a trip.?????
‘Thanks doctors + medicine and those dedicated to those improving medicine and science’y stuff for keeping me alive ????’
It comes after Louise’s fiancé Ryan Libbey revealed that she was rushed to hospital after suffering a haemorrhage.
Taking to Instagram to share an update on the Made In Chelsea star, Ryan explained that he and Louise were forced to cancel their holiday to St Lucia after she required emergency surgery and ‘close monitoring.’
Louise previously took to Instagram to share that she had an ‘unexpected medical situation’ but didn’t elaborate further.
Ryan added that since her health scare, Louise is ‘stable’ and is recovering at home, describing his girlfriend as a ‘warrior.’
In the post to his Stories, Ryan wrote: ‘2023 started well for me and for my family.
‘Last Friday it got flipped on his head again. Louise haemorrhaged at home, again. Rushed to hospital for surgery and close monitoring for four days.
‘Louise is home now, stable and doing well. She’s a warrior!
Health woes: Louise had previously been in hospital after undergoing a ‘small operation’ amid her gruelling battle with Asherman’s Syndrome
‘Leo has picked up impetigo from nursery. Dad is tired.
‘We were supposed to be landing in St Lucia about now for a two-week break. I’ll be back online soon.’
The reality TV personality was diagnosed with PTSD after suffering complications while giving birth to her son Leo-Hunter in 2021.
She later told her followers that Leo-Hunter had been treated in a neonatal intensive care unit (NICU) and she had been treated in the adult ICU after the birth.
Condition: The condition causes scar tissue to form and build up inside your uterus, it is unknown if her recent admission was from complications from the surgery
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